I am anxious. But it is pointless now.
So, my workplace, I meant the company that I belong to has been shaking things up thesesday. They created a whole new department related to the convention industry for which I was hired. But, since I, on a provisional basis, work somewhere else until the end of this year, someone else took over and he did all the work to accomplish the mission. I meant, my company has been working vigorioiusly and painstakingly to branch out another department.. so that my company can get bigger, hire more and thus become untouchable. And it kills me that I am not there for the moment.
Anyways, sometimes I think I have nowhere to go back to at the end of this year. Of course, the team that I used to belong to will probably have me back. But, after I moved to this company, they have been solid.. they have been doing excellent as always without me.
Of course, I never thought that the company would not function without me. If you are one of those thinking that your company would not work without you, it is a big misunderstanding. The world runs fine without you no matter how talented, smart, powerful you are at work.
So, I keep thinking which assignment I will be responsible upon my return. That I don't know. I still have about 5 months to run, but seeing my company going thru such changes makes me somewhat feel antsy about my future.
I will probably have a talk with the head of the team and the department in December as to what I would like to do once I come back. I guess, I need to just wait and see. You see previously, I wanted to go back to my originial team.. the toughest of all.. the team where I orginally belong.. with so many opportunities to go overseas .. to learn from my previous awesome colleagues.. and yet it seems like there is another door open.. another team.. another opportunity... something new...
I don't know. A close colleauge of mine said yesterday that I should be worried to much. Well, I guess he is right- There is, at this point of time, nothing I can do to affect what is going on and what is going to happen. Sometimes I think too much about what is ahead of me. I need to refrain myself from doing that.
