What did I do this past weekend? It was full of sports events. Nope, it did not involve any actual play, but watching baseball games, soccer games and F1 series was major part of it. I was either sitting on my sofa or lying in my bed munching some snacks the whole weekend. Pretty mundane, but I enjoyed being lazy this weekend. Sometimes, it is good to meet friends on the weekends, drink, eat and have a good time. But, more of than not, it is also time and energy consuming. And as a person who prefers to hang out with only a handful of people, I'd rather have an alone time when I feel it is necessary. Yes, the weather was beautiful and I had an itch for some outdoorsy activities, but not this weekend. Maybe some other time.
Hmm. what else? Oh, yes, I finally met my ex. The past couple of days, I have been drawing up a whole rationale as to why I would like to meet her and what to tell her. "Do I sound clingy and desperate? Do I sound like I mean it?" Many thoughts went through my head, but eventually, I managed to tell my ex what I wanted to say.
We met and, well, the first couple minutes was, of course, awkward. She wasn't really smiling and whatnot. But after we got our drinks (we met at a Starbucks), we started to catch up and talked about a little bit of this and that. Then, finally, the moment of truth has come.
I think I was calm and honest. I did not say what I did not mean to say. She intermittently interrupted me while I was speaking, but I managed to continue and finished my story. Then, she asked me a couple of questions as to my story. And I answered them. No big deal.
As I anticipated, she did not know to say. I did not expect anything in the first place. But, it was clear that she did not expect me to say anything I said. At any rate, we ended up deviating from the main topic and talked about each other a bit. And I realized that she got out of a relationship about a month and a half ago.
After two hours, we walked out of the building together and parted our ways. No hugging or anything similar, but just awkward good byes- Where is this going to lead us? I don't know. I laid out what I needed to say. If she is interested, well, that's great. If she isn't, well, I guess I can finally move on and have closure. Either way, I am very much glad and relieved. But somehow, I failed to go to bed easily as I usually do. It was probably because I took a nap about two hours earlier, but also because I kept thinking about the girl and the conversation.
